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The life of a person is never the same as the days move on different things happen. Some people would say forever but forever is a non existent theory that will never come true. I myself have often said I will be together with you forever and I have known for quite awhile now that it is just a wish of mine that only exists in my mind. Together??? Forever???
Realizing that we should live life to the fullest but not hurt people in the process has made me just a slight bit happier though there were alot of things that I have thought of doing. I am a person who gets attatched to people easily. The only thing that they need to do is be sweet to me and wahlah I am they're personal slave in the making. I have done alot of things in my life that I am not proud of but its things like that which makes me stronger in life. Learning from my mistakes in the process. Sometimes things dont work out my way but what can I do. NOTHING except not worry about it.
My friends has helped me throughout alot of things. For example during the time when I was DUMPED I had ashton and lollo to turn to and I love them both for being there for me especially ashton gah hahaha the times he had to run over just because I was crying... poor him. I was clinging on to nick so hard and for so long but now that I know we will never be more then what we are I have eased up and now I am happier. Getting to know other people along the way has made it more easier for me. People like Adrian who has managed to spice up my life by making it really funny. oohh speaking of farnie theres william tan. Gah I have never known anyone as funny as him. He and Nick should really start a webby show of their own. Im sure it would bea big hit.
I've asked myself countless of times is it worth hurting someone just to get what I want. I have recently come to a conclusion that it is not worth it. To get abit of happiness while another is crying in pain is not how I would want to live my life. People have often told me if u want something and I mean reallyreally want it, theres no stopping you from getting it but u see in life we dont always get what we want. We can always whine and groan over all the things that we can get but dont get but we gain some and we loose some. As long as we are happy with what we have and not think so much about other things. We will always be happy. Like my friends always call me a happy go lucky girl who has no care in the world. Well they are so wrong.
quote from adrian: with time and effort anything is possible!!!!!!
Realizing that we should live life to the fullest but not hurt people in the process has made me just a slight bit happier though there were alot of things that I have thought of doing. I am a person who gets attatched to people easily. The only thing that they need to do is be sweet to me and wahlah I am they're personal slave in the making. I have done alot of things in my life that I am not proud of but its things like that which makes me stronger in life. Learning from my mistakes in the process. Sometimes things dont work out my way but what can I do. NOTHING except not worry about it.
My friends has helped me throughout alot of things. For example during the time when I was DUMPED I had ashton and lollo to turn to and I love them both for being there for me especially ashton gah hahaha the times he had to run over just because I was crying... poor him. I was clinging on to nick so hard and for so long but now that I know we will never be more then what we are I have eased up and now I am happier. Getting to know other people along the way has made it more easier for me. People like Adrian who has managed to spice up my life by making it really funny. oohh speaking of farnie theres william tan. Gah I have never known anyone as funny as him. He and Nick should really start a webby show of their own. Im sure it would bea big hit.
I've asked myself countless of times is it worth hurting someone just to get what I want. I have recently come to a conclusion that it is not worth it. To get abit of happiness while another is crying in pain is not how I would want to live my life. People have often told me if u want something and I mean reallyreally want it, theres no stopping you from getting it but u see in life we dont always get what we want. We can always whine and groan over all the things that we can get but dont get but we gain some and we loose some. As long as we are happy with what we have and not think so much about other things. We will always be happy. Like my friends always call me a happy go lucky girl who has no care in the world. Well they are so wrong.
quote from adrian: with time and effort anything is possible!!!!!!
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the worst thing a girl can do to another girl is to take their guy...... recently i was introduced to a really sweet and cute guy who seemed to love bein sugar sweet. I loved talking to him and still do. the next day I got the most interesting news in the world and that was he has a gf. hahaha imagine my surprise so I asked the guy who introed me to him why he did so and he said that he and the gf are very unstable so i can move in innitially I thought that it would be a good idea to do that but now that I think about it I wouldnt want any girl to do the same thing to me. I would be completely heartbroken and I know the feeling so bad choice. Ive decided that the best thing to do is just treat him as a friend an awsome friend btw hahaha and leave it at that. there are plenty more fish in the sea and well to get the right one takes patience.
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Its been awhile since Ive posted anything. I guess its because Ive lost the writing touch. Well now I really need to write as I dont really know how to express myself anymore. Crying doesnt help, banging on things doesnt help and sreamin at other people sure as hell doesnt help either. Ive even tried talking to my dearest friends but its not working.
Well nick and I were actually happily together for a month and then it all went crashing down. I was dumped twice and when the 2nd time came it didnt get any better. I agreeed to be friends with him as that was what he wanted. I couldnt bear to dissapoint him which is so stupid of me. Initially I wanted to just give up and not pay any attention to him so that I cant forget him easier but I decided no to go with that plan. I loved him so much and I still love him. My friends told me to get over it and there are other guys out there but somehow I just cant let it go. Since the time he left me until now Ive been hanging with him, smsin him, and talking to him like normal. Sometimes I cant take the pressure and I crack but until now Im still holding on like normal though there are times like today when I would feel depressed.
Sometimes I think Im going psycho especially for the past few nights when Ive been having deadly nightmares of him having another girlfriend and leavin my sight completely. Its the worst nightmare yet and really nothing can beat this dream of mine. These dreams are really makin me get a short amount of sleep. My tempers getting short, Im cursing alot. Sometimes when Im around him I get emo or I just start to dream and Im not actually in a bad mood Im just feelin sad at that time. Sometimes I know that nobody will understand how Im feeling. The pain, the misery and the love all at the same time. I hate him for leaving me and I love him for gawd knows what reason. I feel like stranggling myself at times. Ive been with him alot lately trying to spend as much time as possible with him. I try to do as much as possible for him eventhough Ive given up all hopes of bein with him again.
Eventhough Im tired I help him with his pain, I try and be there when hes lonely, I even listen to him when he tells me not to do something as I really dont like it when hes angry. I hate that Im doing all this when I already know I will get nothing out of it. I dont know why Im so fucking stupid. I used to text him 24 hours a day to see how he is. Now I try not to if I can. Ive limited myself to 1 message per day. I wish the pain will just go away.
PS: someone pls tell me what the hell should I do.
Well nick and I were actually happily together for a month and then it all went crashing down. I was dumped twice and when the 2nd time came it didnt get any better. I agreeed to be friends with him as that was what he wanted. I couldnt bear to dissapoint him which is so stupid of me. Initially I wanted to just give up and not pay any attention to him so that I cant forget him easier but I decided no to go with that plan. I loved him so much and I still love him. My friends told me to get over it and there are other guys out there but somehow I just cant let it go. Since the time he left me until now Ive been hanging with him, smsin him, and talking to him like normal. Sometimes I cant take the pressure and I crack but until now Im still holding on like normal though there are times like today when I would feel depressed.
Sometimes I think Im going psycho especially for the past few nights when Ive been having deadly nightmares of him having another girlfriend and leavin my sight completely. Its the worst nightmare yet and really nothing can beat this dream of mine. These dreams are really makin me get a short amount of sleep. My tempers getting short, Im cursing alot. Sometimes when Im around him I get emo or I just start to dream and Im not actually in a bad mood Im just feelin sad at that time. Sometimes I know that nobody will understand how Im feeling. The pain, the misery and the love all at the same time. I hate him for leaving me and I love him for gawd knows what reason. I feel like stranggling myself at times. Ive been with him alot lately trying to spend as much time as possible with him. I try to do as much as possible for him eventhough Ive given up all hopes of bein with him again.
Eventhough Im tired I help him with his pain, I try and be there when hes lonely, I even listen to him when he tells me not to do something as I really dont like it when hes angry. I hate that Im doing all this when I already know I will get nothing out of it. I dont know why Im so fucking stupid. I used to text him 24 hours a day to see how he is. Now I try not to if I can. Ive limited myself to 1 message per day. I wish the pain will just go away.
PS: someone pls tell me what the hell should I do.
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I was in singapore for 5 days I had loads of fun I did laods of things. The thing I did the most is shop... I shopped till I literally dropped it was so fun. All the clothes were bought from forever 21 and topshop. The main reason I went to singapore was to visit my dad and to take a look at colleges for me to enter next year.
Ive been wanting to enter a dance college and I get my chance to do that next year. The college I went to visit is LA SELLE college or arts. There is a 90% chance that I will be entering that college nexxt year I really hope I get in it would be so awsome. Fun and stressful but still fun. Loving life right now nicky is so wonderful though he has been really stressed for the last few days due to his VB he looks like a total zomby.
Tomoro onwards Ill get to spend more time with him and Ill even be going to watch him play futsal on saturday. Being with him has been an experience I appriciate eventhough we havent been together for long its like Ive been with him forever. Loving him is a thing I must do as often as I can actually not as often as I can but every second of the day every milisecond goodness Ive gone nuts. Basically its just everyday my sweet babyboy. weeeeeeeee
Ive been wanting to enter a dance college and I get my chance to do that next year. The college I went to visit is LA SELLE college or arts. There is a 90% chance that I will be entering that college nexxt year I really hope I get in it would be so awsome. Fun and stressful but still fun. Loving life right now nicky is so wonderful though he has been really stressed for the last few days due to his VB he looks like a total zomby.
Tomoro onwards Ill get to spend more time with him and Ill even be going to watch him play futsal on saturday. Being with him has been an experience I appriciate eventhough we havent been together for long its like Ive been with him forever. Loving him is a thing I must do as often as I can actually not as often as I can but every second of the day every milisecond goodness Ive gone nuts. Basically its just everyday my sweet babyboy. weeeeeeeee
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I was made official with nicholas tan on the 27th of may at 12.30 a.m.
ahhhahahaha happy meee
ahhhahahaha happy meee
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This year I decided to try something new. I wanted to join the cheerleading team and since I suddenly decided not to join I am now training them. "Gasp" right... I know. Samantha training cheerleaders. hahaha I may nto have much experience with cheerleading but I do know what Im doing... most of the time XD. Actually thoughout the time I was training them I finally figured out what it feels like to be the coach. It's not easy. sometimes it gets so fustrating especially when they dont listen to you. I love them all as friends but when it comes to their practice I feel like strangling them arghhhhh. hahaha but nonetheless I still love them to bits. Now besides training the cheerleaders I have somehow been manipilated into joining the dodgeball team as well. "confused" oohh yah the cheer group is actually part of the dodgeball team as well. The team is called the ronins I think hahaha and the logo for the team is a bear. Well I tried to play dodgeball for the first time yesterday and it was so funny. It suddenly became a game of monkey. If you dont know what monkey is read below
EXPLAINATION: Well monkey is basically a game where a person stands in the middle while the others surround the monkey. everybody throws the ball to each other while the monkey tries to catch the ball when the monkey catches the ball the person who threw the ball last has to replace the monkey and the game goes on.
Eventhough its stressful to try and play the game ad train the cheergirls its actually quite fun for me as well. I get to learn new things while trying to teach. I get new experiences while training with them as well. So I actually cant complain that much hahaha.
Cheer: It's ok It's alright go ronins FIGHT!!! FIGHT!!! FIGHT!!!
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I have either been really lazy for the past few days or just really busy hahaha Ive been so tired. Well on tuesday I had no classes but I purposely came to college to see brandys cute face and to wish him a happy burfday. I was glad that I came actually cause I had a blast with him. We had his birthday lunch in oneu. We drove there in the car there was wilson, ivan, bin han, brandy and me. When we reached oneu the people who were preparing his half surprise were still halfway preparing and so we had to stall brandy at the game arcade. He played the drums I still have no idea what its called and then we made him play the para-para dance machine. I keep forgetting to take pictures of everything eleh. Anywayz when brandon finished playing and wanted to go down they still were not quite ready so wilson decided to go to the toilet and brandy wanted to go to. OTW we met fiona and kenneth so we all walked to wong kok together. Wong kok is a restaurant where I have gone many... many... many times. thanks to my dear darling sabrina who just simply loves the place. When we walked in we saw that a few people were already waiting for us. Sabrina, charlson, maya and charlsons friend omg Im so sorry I forgot the name. sobbzzz. Soo all together there were sabrina, charlson, maya, charlsons friend, me, wilson, ivan, fiona, kenneth, ah lok, bin han, and later on came kelly, jolene and jeslyn. First we had loads of food and while we were eating we took lots of photos. The continuation of the story will come together with the photos muahahaha.
PS: there are alot of photos so not all of them are going to be here. The photos will all be featured on facebook.
This is brandons love for "lai cha"
This is the whole group of friends
Brandon decided to be nice and gave some "lai cha away"
It was a free gift from the restaurant and as brandon would saybrandon happy so sexy
Yumyum cake mangooooo
OMG the evil clutches of sabrina
Its tradition for a person to take the candle out of the cake using his/ her mouth and when they try to a person stading behind them would smash the birthday girl/ boys head into the cake but for sabrina it's different if your face doesnt quite smashes to the cake she will take the cake and smash it into your face. EVIL BUTTERFLY.
